I must admit, this specific post is spontaneous, and what I say isn’t really at all planned out ahead of time. However, I have learned a lot about faith and sharing my understanding seems like a good idea.
Faith can come in different ways.
It can be knowing that God is good and having your mind tell you to trust in Him, even when your emotions don’t listen.
Or, it can be trusting God with your feelings and knowing He is Lord in your heart, even when the words in your mind don’t agree, and even with a small bit of fear hanging around you.
Recently, I came across a verse with a definition from Hebrews 11:1:
“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.”
I have the last part down. Having confidence in what I hope for is another thing. It’s hard for me. I always think, “Well, what if it’s not in God’s plan?” Or “Well, what if He wants me to do something differently or doesn’t grant me whatever wish because I can’t seem to focus, or because I haven’t been giving Him my all?” The only thing I can really do in these times is remember how much He loves us, and me, and remember that if He wants it, it’ll happen. I struggle with the fact that I have not lead a righteous life, and I don’t really know how. I say my prayers, I try to keep the commandments, but I often mess up. Somewhere in the Bible, it says that the prayers of the righteous will be granted, but that’s not me.
I guess it’s good to remember that there’s nothing we can do to deserve His grace or mercy, even if we minimize our sin and do our best to lead a Godly life. Even righteous people fall short of the glory of God. Even righteous people need forgiveness.
Still, it’s nice to aim for more confidence. I think a lack of confidence comes from looking at myself, instead of looking at the Lord.
It’s important to know your God, and having a lack of confidence like I mentioned is, at the heart of it, a result of not knowing Him, of sometimes not having a clear definition of who and what He is. I really need to get to know Him more.
What I know now is that God is Love. God is Goodness. God is Grace and Mercy. God is the Perfect Father. God is Eternal. God is Christ Our Savior.
Sometimes, I don’t know this, or I forget. It’s something I constantly have to relearn.
To be a child of God means to make mistakes over and over, just like a child does, but to go back to Him, and be embraced in His always open arms. Doing the same mistakes over and over is very childlike, and God constantly telling me not to do stuff is very parent-like. However, unlike our earthly parents, God is Perfect. Take that to mean what you will.
I encourage you to repeatedly get to know the Lord your God. It will help in so many different ways that you probably haven’t known have needed help.
God loves you and He always will.